EDIT: thanks for all of your comments! I did my presentation today and it didn't help my relapse much, but at least I got it over with.

Also, my security jacket broke. The zipper is broken and I can't wear it anymore. It sounds really stupid, but I feel really uncomfortable without a jacket of some sort on. I guess it's one of those little things. Hopefully I'll get a new one sometime this week before I'm reduced to tears again. I've been crying/almost crying a lot.

Also, I discovered how fucking insensitive my brother is. And some of my 'friends'. Like, seriously, you know I have problems, don't fucking joke about it.

I don't like school. I don't like people. I like NyQuil and an OD sounds acceptable right now.

Hello,

As I might have told some of you, I got caught cutting and am now seeing a counselor/psychiatrist thing lady person. I don't like it, but it'll be good for me, I think. I've gotten a diagnosis:

- Severe/Chronic Depression
- Social Anxiety
- They're watching me for anorexia

Initially, they were going to test me/watch me for sociopathy but decided not to. lol. I don't even know why.

But yeah, I went a...week or so without being too sad, but last week around Tuesday/Thursday I relapsed and I haven't been much better apart from some time with my friends over the weekend. We've been discussing depression and suicide in Health and it's sort of killing me. And I have to give a presentation on it tomorrow and....I don't think I can do it...it just triggers. A lot of things trigger. I guess I'm just that fucking weak.

but yeah, that's all.